“There is neither happiness nor unhappiness in this world; there is only the comparison of one state with another. Only a man who has felt ultimate despair is capable of feeling ultimate bliss. It is necessary to have wished for death in order to know how good it is to live…..the sum of all human wisdom will be contained in these two words: Wait and Hope.” -Alexandre Dumas, The Count of Monte Cristo
Made my bf watch my ultimate favorite movie of all time, Count of Monte Cristo (2002) last night and it never ceases to amaze and dumbfound me yet again.
“The truth is, I want to feel my pain. I want to feel the sadness and the near-burning nostalgia of leaving a place and a people I love, because it deserves it. Everything beautiful that we experience in life, when it suffers or comes to an end, is going to be filled with this kind of aching sorrow. But that is a good thing, because it means that it had significance in your life, that it cannot be easily dismissed like so many other things you let roll off your back. To be sad when the end comes is to pay homage to everything that was great, to all that it gave you, to who you are because of it. And yes, it is “weak” to cry and write letters and talk about your sadness. It is “weak” to rest your head on someone’s chest and welcome being consoled. It is “weak” to focus, at least temporarily, on the pain you feel.But it is also wonderful. It is a moment in which you feel alive, human, and fully connected to the things that you touch in life. There are few moments where we lose or change or move on from something great, and those moments do make us weak. To be strong and silent in the face of them — to deny that they have touched you and will leave a great absence in your life — is to dismiss its importance. You may find yourself needing the support of friends and family, to be reassured and have your hand held. You may need to be reminded of what is good, and that the pain will subside. You may need to lean on someone. And that’s okay.” — Chelsea Fagan,
There’s no particular word for that feeling you acquire of several feelings: pain, bitterness, happiness, content, discontent, nostalgia, homesickness and of wanting to escape all at the same time.
I felt this after a wonderful 4 day vacation in my dad’s hometown in Bicol with friends. Leaving was so bittersweet and this quote reminds me of all those emotions. I wish I can elaborate but I’m at work right now and I will expound on all of these experiences vividly next time. 🙂