Who is this tiny speck in the universe called Carla Ezequiel?
A girl who enjoys long car rides, sunsets, sad songs and awesome movies. Someone who loves the smell of gasoline, new books, bacon and garlic frying. Has a deep passionate love for new experiences. Risk taker. Wanderer. Introspective. Emotionally unpredictable. Laughs at the strangest things. Recognizes life’s irony. Independent yet interdependent. I want other people around, but I don’t like needing them. Introverted but very expressive. Isn’t subtle, but is sometimes hard to see through. Quirky, impatient, stubborn and paranoid at times yet compassionate. A walking contradiction. A free spirit. 🙂
“I’m almost never serious, and I’m always too serious. Too deep, too shallow. Too sensitive, too cold hearted. I’m like a collection of paradoxes.” — Ferdinand von Schrubentaufft.
“So therefore I dedicated myself to myself, to my art, my sleep, my dreams, my labors, my suffrances, my loneliness, my unique madness, my endless absorption and hunger – because I cannot dedicate myself to any fellow being.” – Jack Kerouac
You may be wondering why my blog is entitled Amor Fati. This is actually a Latin phrase which translates to “Love thy fate”. This is a famous quote from the philosopher Frederich Nietzsche whose works have inspired me from the time I watched the movie “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind” (Where Kirsten Dunst’s character quotes him and says: “Blessed are the forgetful for they get the better even of their blunders”) until the time I studied his works in my Existentialism class. The concept of loving thy fate is very significant for me because it is an attitude and a lifestyle I want to adapt. It means an acceptance and surrender to one’s fate no matter the outcome. Sweet or bitter, loss or success – it is all part of the goodness of our life’s journey.
I want to learn more and more to see as beautiful what is necessary in things; then I shall be one of those who make things beautiful. Amor fati: let that be my love henceforth! I do not want to wage war against what is ugly. I do not want to accuse; I do not even want to accuse those who accuse. Looking away shall be my only negation. And all in all and on the whole: some day I wish to be only a Yes-sayer. – Nietzsche